Y Friday, January 16, 2009
. I`m on an emotional roller coaster tatz going down & down . Frenz for 6 years . Wat else can i say . Itz the first time u hurt me so much ?? . Hav been going through quite alot of matter now a days . And now itz yr turn . My own fren whom we spend our time not leaving each other .
. Itz the first time tearing over a fren u love so badly . And i feel like a fool . Not only love can make girls cry . Frenship does .
. Whenever each is unhappy abt the other . I always try my best to talk them out . Ask them out so frenship won`t get affected . But wat are they doing when itz my turn ?? .
. On my own in the inside was enough when i thought of the time u`ll be here beside me . Now wat hav change ?? . I nev speak of wat had happened recently when it hurts and i wanna tell u abt it . But i felt there wasn`t a need i try to get over myself . And now . I DUNNO WAT TO SAY .
. I became someone who does not talk abt my feeling much . Nor the things tat happened . But it doesn`t mean i`m fine . I always kidd tat " I VERY SAD LEHS " But u nev get it . And i nev tell u abt it .
. And now let me talk here wif watever i wan . I DON`T WANNA CRY ANYMORE !! . I DON`T WANNA HURT !! . STOP ALL THE HURT . I wan u to hug me like u use to when i cry . To scold me whenever i cry like u use to . But this time itz crying for u . Wat will u do when U`RE NOT EVEN HERE ?? . Wat would u do when u`ve change . And wat would u do when u don`t even know how much u`ve hurt me .
. I use to laugh wif u , cry wif you , be wif u when u cry or when u`re mad . Fow now , i guess u no longer need me ard .
. Dear Jesus, . Give me a better year . I thought u`ve put me through 2007 till the 08 was enough .
. I thought u say u`ll nev like yr child hurt more than they can take it . But u lied .
. I thought u say u`ll judge . Tatz why i nev took any revenge nor hold any grudges .
. Bec i thought u love me . But now , why are u doing this to me ?? .
YYY
. It seems like juz yesterday when i still hav u in my arms . If only i can be in control of time ...
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