Y Friday, June 13, 2008
. guess i`m not happy wif much things . and i realised my change, my temper has gone better . usually i`m not happy i`ll explode but i didn`t . keep inside, keep quiet ppl like taking advantage . nobody all this find me . got ppl all this i`m like fake . u really treating me as fren anot ?? . knn i keep inside very long but not as though i don`t mind okay ?? . i treat u all not good mehs ?? . watever . fuck it . i`m not gonna say much anymore . and don`t come complain to me when pp treat u unfairly . when u`re okay wif them, u totally forget abt me . and my family ?? . u think u guys really give me alot of money huh ?? . seriously la, not say i`m bad . there are ups & down . when u guys are down . CHOY , u oso hav to depend on me . don`t come say " we all is not no money when we old we nev expect u to take care of us " for me, my mindset is always , when we`re young u guys take care of us . when u`re old itz our turn to take care of u . but u guys really make me feel u`re freaking stingy . hello !! ?? . fuck it . i don`t wanna say much . i`m sick . yea , i went out . but why i went out ?? . bec i`m out of cig , if u guys gave me more money u think i need tO go & get duty un-paid cig ?? . i`m not well , ya i`m pampered. i don`t like this & tat . but i muz go till the enten to buy overseas cig which sucks big time ?? . and i`m not like yr son who wanna rely on u guys for money . i work wat u guys say " itz not tat we got no money why wanna work yrself so hard ?? . yr sch work is more important " . if i don`t ?? . forget it . i hate being here in Singapore . when Evelyn wanna me to join her at London, u guys shld hav send me over . WHY AGAIN ?? . BEC U GUYS DON`T WANNA WASTE MONEY EH ?? . why ppl like u ?? . bec u treat others better than u treat yr own daughter . fuck it . so fedup . OH LOOK , I LOOK AS THOUGH I HAV EVERYTHING EH ?? . whatever , frenz . family ?? . thought they shld be the closest thing i shld hav & love ?? . it doesn`t seem so .......
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
darling not slping?▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
no moodto slp .
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
u go slp la ?▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
y no mood to slp?▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
nah , alot of things in my mind▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
like?
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
fren , family .
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
why lei?▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
dun think too much
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
i will worry for u de▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
u go slp ba ok .▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
dun think so mucj▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
i worry for u
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
hais
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
nth .. u go slp okay .
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
dun think k
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
be happy▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
cos gt my love▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
lol▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
ya , u oso another one . still say got yr love ..
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
why lei▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
keep giving me catch u lie & hong .
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
now no more already▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
oso another one make me cheng xim .
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
101% save▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
promise
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
wanna stay like tat
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
listen only , go slp okay .
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
really▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
i will prove to u▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
okok go slp okay ..▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
ok▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
better rest early?▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
miss and love u lots▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
muacks▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
okok .. don`t worry . go slp okay
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar `o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
ok▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
nights ?▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ ¹² мая o8 _))» ° ❤ ▒▒▒▌ °footprints-onmyheart.blogspot.com says:
gogogo. i lat slp will msg u okay ,( thank you dear ). i remember when i use to rely on him so much . whenever i`ve got anything in my mind or face another problem he`ll always be there for me , felt save & secure with his presence . when he`s gone, i was lefy helpless . but i didn`t realise tat there wana nother here for me . Dear, even they are juz words . it does make me feel better . thank you dear . i thpught i got no one else to rely on . guess being POPULAR is juz for a certain time huh ?? . but when itz not ppl take for granted . mayb my character shld be like before tatz why ppl will stick to me iziit ?? . but wat was my life like ?? . i don`t even remember . wat am i suppose to do ?? . i scold ppl like i use to then ppl will like huh ?? . be like an ah lian then ppl will stick to huh ?? . now miss nice no temper no nth . give u all say oso keep quiet , say until very over board oso smile smile u all don`t like huh ?? . like tat then give u all take advantage bec too nice huh ?? . treat u guys as frenz, u guys treat me as shit huh . who i am now i`m not sure . i can`t be who i am . only like it pass wif a laugh with smiles . seriously .... i wan to find back who i were . after u ruined my life . who i am i don`t even know . i nev search, i only stick myself to be crazy type . everything don`t wanna think abt it . let it pass . but when i suddenly realise . I LOST ME ........... guess i`m being too hard on one of my fren . i dunno wat to say . we used to stick to each other, u & i were the first secondary sch frenz . guess frenz do come & go . as i`ve said i really miss my life how it use to be . really where laughter wif frenz wif no injury from others . it was nice . thanks afterall . i don`t think i`m thinking too much at all i guess . i`ve being keeping quiet tatz all & suddenly juz feel like exploding but didn`t i`m juz stating facts . mayb wat my pap says is right . i`m those who`ll die for frenz , bec of frenz can don`t wan them . but so ?? . frenz are taking advantage ..
YYY
. It seems like juz yesterday when i still hav u in my arms . If only i can be in control of time ...
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