Y Thursday, May 29, 2008
. my lOvely Biatch, Rayne =) hahahars .
. and this pig , met Rayne after tuition under her block . and both of them played PSP & left me alone =( hahahars , they snactched the PSP from me and not let me play bec i`m toO PRO, both of them afraid tat i`ll complete all their games . so quickly complete for each other so i won`t hav tat chance . aiya .. let them play lOrs, only RETARDS play PSP . ppl wif high IQ , like me ?? . don`t play such games . muahahahas .
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after meeting Rayne was suppose tO gO home, but we went Reservoir tO slack for a little while . there are questions & words tat Dear said kept me thinking . wat did he do tat worth my love . if i keep holding on, i`m juz making myself suffer . and why do i hav to give up the whole forest bec of him ?? . am i giving up ?? . i juz felt tat i wasn`t ready for another love . the questions go on , and he keep brain-washing me . but nev will i get into my thick skull . for myself, when will the day come for me to stop ?? . stop holding on, stop loving him, stop my own suffering . ppl ard me are seeing clearer than me . but why don`t i ?? . i know , i know wats everybody`s saying . but when it comes to yr own . no matter how much u know .. u don`t know .. dear`s here , he nev wanna give up . he says tat he`ll wait for the day for me to love him . but, will i ?? . i know very clearly tat i`m being so unfair to him, but i juz don`t know how to let go . sufferings i`ve being through . in cover, i seem like i`ve moved on . but ppl ard me is seeing more clearly than me tat i`ve not . it scares me, bec i`m so afraid tat i myself will fall back again . i might suffer in there this time, but itz much better when u suffer beside him . wat else do i hav tO say ?? . i don`t even know myself, the more he says the more i teared . whether being wif dear or not . i nev cared abt his feelings for tearing in front of him for another . i know how unfair it is for him . i nev wanna hurt u in purpose . for now, i juz hope u`ll leave me for a better one . will i carry on like this forever and nev get another guy to love me like dear said ?? . i dunnO, i really don`t . but i know myself, my heart is not prepared for another love to replace him . i`m sorry tat i`ll ever hurt u dear . i am . if u`ll leave for another one day, i will nev blame .... My conversation wif Dear .
▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ i`ve lOst the will tO lOve _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
dear , i`m sorry if i ever hurt u..
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar 20o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
wat u mean?
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ i`ve lOst the will tO lOve _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
juz now , when we talk abt dualiap
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar 20o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
i noe▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar 20o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
i'm understand..i'm not angry or wat▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar 20o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
nv see i keep say things which is true to let u forget him
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar 20o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
cos i really loved u wif my whole heart
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar 20o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
when u say u dun love mi at all jus now
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar 20o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
my heart really hurts
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar 20o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
but i jus keep it myself
▒▒▒▌ ❤ °« ((_｢ 12th 'mar 20o8 _))» ° ❤ * * ▒▒▒▌* °les says:
i really hope u will get mi in
. Yr hurt juz make me guilt even more . i`ve let ppl ard me who loves me down . i`m sorry dear . i`m sorry my parents . i`m sorry frenz & family . i`ve let u guys suffered when i suffered .
. nev keep things tO yourself if i ever hurt u again ..
YYY
. It seems like juz yesterday when i still hav u in my arms . If only i can be in control of time ...
3:26 PM
. my lOvely Biatch, Rayne =) hahahars .
. and this pig , met Rayne after tuition under her block . and both of them played PSP & left me alone =( hahahars , they snactched the PSP from me and not let me play bec i`m toO PRO, both of them afraid tat i`ll complete all their games . so quickly complete for each other so i won`t hav tat chance . aiya .. let them play lOrs, only RETARDS play PSP . ppl wif high IQ , like me ?? . don`t play such games . muahahahas .
