Y Tuesday, March 18, 2008
. Okie , guess i`ve over eaten fOr staying at hOme the whOle day tat i vOmitted during my bath . hahahars .
. here`s a deliciOus picture of my thrown outs . ( u`re lucky tat i bring my phOne in during my bath hOrs !! . )
wonder why dOes it lOok milky yea . bec itz mOstly made up of cheese . kept eating & eating fOr the whOle day . beef cheese pie . ruffles cheddar cheese & sour cream . i ate rice too . but i wonder why it nev came out ?? . hahahars . all i saw was bits of beef . hahahars . OKIE !! . i gOtta admit tat it was disgusting . i hav tO clean the mess i`ve made myself . can`t possilbly ask my maid tO dO tat eh ?? . it seriously stank . guess i`ll be afraid of eating cheese from today onwards . OR , mayb nOt ?? . hahahars . cuz after vomiting i went tOn eat my potato chips again ( cheddar cheese & sour cream ) . hahahars . sO , i think i`ve clean the whOle sewage system . the sink was chocked , i hav tO pump it myself . Fcuking hell tat it stank , i hav tO smOke while cleaning up . WATTTAAA HELLLL ?? . hahahars . after tat i`ve pour Dettol tO disinfect the sink . hahahars good housewife yea ?? . hahahars . okie , i`ve spend sOmetime cleaning it up . and i guess the whole sewage system is clean nOw la .. i still pour sOme fragrance oil after i`m done hOrs !! . nOw my toilet smell nice BECAUSE OF ME . hahahars . anyOne wanna cOme hav a lick of my sink ?? . hahahars .
. okie so i sOmehOw learnt my lessOn tat there`s a price tO pay fOr being greedy . TAN CHI DE XIAO HAI HUI TU !! . hahahars .. anOther part of my day , met sOme irritating fellas online . this " Time Are Hard " he sent me a msg saying " u lOok like an alien , yr eyes are sO big . haha " . hahars ?? . u think itz funny bOy ?? . MY EYES BIG HUAN TIO U AH !! . WAT ALIEN !! ?? . knn , kiam gan . and this stupid guy call SCOOP on my msn ?? . he`s fucking annOying me . i juz scolded him ytd , yet he juz msg me " hi , okie already ?? ." KNN , ISN`T IT OBVIOUS PPL DON`T WANNA CHAT WIF U ?? . SCOLD U ALREADY YR SKIN STILL THICK THICK COME TALK TO PPL AH ?? . okie , i dunnO wat else tO say anymOre . HAV THIS WORLD GONE MAD ?? . hahars . or hav i ?? .. Jen suppose tO come over ?? . but up till nOw she`s still having interview . my medicine take effect alOt after i haven`t ate it fOr afew days . can`t wake up fOr sch tOday . and , wOn`t be turning up again tmr . guess my studies gOnna hav a great fall . i slp in sch . HAVEN`T started on my F & N when ppl are already on Research & Development . or even mOre huh nadya ?? . aiya , i`m like heck caring my studies nOw . i`ll mostly flung my grades off . tatz all fOr my day , guess will watch tv programmes then turnnnn in . hahahars . now i`m a power sleeper ah !! . POWER TO THE PEOPLE !! . -__-'" <-- wOw !! , guess itz been sO lOng i dO this kinda emoticons . hahahars . okie , stOp yr nonsense la !! . guess my blOg will be all abt nOnsense . and i seem tO be very lOh sOh . okok . stOp here ....To : LESlie,
. itz yr 4th day in DB , guess everything i dO daily u`ll be able to read it here . so need nOt msg u anymOre . in case u can`t recieve waste my msg . hahahars .. THERE`S SO MUCH I NEED TO HEAR FROM YOU ..... itz been days since u`re gOne . i`m here trying tO understand the situation of me . 16 mOre days tO gO tO get any assurance frOm u . will yr lOve be true ?? . Pls tell me nOw , befOre i fall in lOve . i`m sO afraid of getting burn once again . i`ve been hearing sO much , i cOuld hav juz leave nOw . but by leaving like this it wOuld be unfair for u if i didn`t give u the chance tO even speak or tO let say wat u wanna say . time`s has been really hard fOr me , i nev expect myself tO start wif anOther after lOosing confidence in lOve . i nev thOught of having anOther after him . fOr u ?? . i`m trying tO find an answer myself . as nOw i hav u , i still couldn`t tell the wOrld tat u`re mine . bec the next 16 days we might juz hav tO gO our own ways . itz nOt tat i wOuldn`t wanna be wif u or return tO him . itz juz tat i`m saving myself frOm anOther circle of hurts . by tat time i hOpe u`ll understand wat i`ve been thrOugh & why i`ve gOtta make this decisiOn bec i cOuld nO lOnger let myself break dOwn anOther time . i wouldn`t say i lOve u . if i dO , then watz left fOr him . but i knOw tat i`ve chOOsen tO be wif yOu . i need time tO build it all up wif yOu . u tOld me nOt tO take u as a spare tyre . i`m nOt & i wOn`t . i cOuld be the one fOr u tO last wif , the one tO be there thrOugh yr ups & down & wanna be the one tO take care of u when u`re sick . the point is all i need is yr lOve , commitment & yOu . i`m lOoking fOr a seriOus lOng lasting relatiOnship wif u . if there`s nO assurance tat u can . i`m over it & we both hav tO let gO of our hands . all i hav tO say is tat u shOuld`ve knOwn better . i`ll be thrOugh wif lOve , sOme says itz unfair fOr them . but again , i juz can`t let myself gO thrOugh anOther break dOwn . till then ... i need tO hear it straight frOm yOu , if u wan me tO believe itz true .tO yOu : . i sacrifice my time & my heart . I gave u my all but wat u dO ?? . u might think tat i`m happy wif anOther , u`re nth tO me . all i hav tO say is u bOught all this on yOu . tables turn . but juz ask yrself if u were me . wat can else can i dO even thOugh hOlding on is all abt hurts frOm u ?? . i told myself nOt tO be afraid tO mOve on . but in the back of my mind i can`t help but questiOn . Does he kiss me on the forehead before we gO tO bed ?? . shOw up at my dOorstep wif a smile on yr face ?? . Does he call me in the middle of the day juz tO say " baby i lOve yOu " like u use tO ?? . but wats the pOint of me keep lOokin back tO all this when u`re the one whO brOught me sO much hurts tO me in the end ?? . sOmetimes i kiss him i wish tat i`m itz u i`m kissing . sOmetimes i miss him i wish u`re the one i`m missing . but there`s nO pOint , i hav tO walk away nOw bec being wif u is all abt hurts , betrayl & abusing . we bOth hav tO let gO . u`re the one tat has changed , itz u whO walked away first again again . i`v pulled u back but u juz walked away in front of me again... u`re the one whO bOught our love intO this situation . i`ve been asking . where hav the 2 of us been tO . itz yr time tO ask yrself . itz our goOdbye nOw ..
. when we were yOung , when i`ve waited fOr u as we were seperated frOm Prisonland .
. when there were only the 2 of us . time`s when we`re still tOgether as a happy family .
. then see , where`s the bOth of us nOw ?? . are u happy nOw ELJL ?? .
. Okie , guess tOday`s entry can beat recOrd huh . hahars . tatz all i guess . i`ve been blOgging since like 8 plus ?? . wat thee helll ?? . hahahars . tatz all fOlks !! .
P.S : kai , so wat i`m a stulut ?? . take this !! . ( L )
YYY
. It seems like juz yesterday when i still hav u in my arms . If only i can be in control of time ...
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