♥ . It scares me to see where i`ve walked through my life . ♥

Y Thursday, November 12, 2009

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12:15 AM

Y Saturday, November 7, 2009

. Rihanna - Russian Roulette . David Cook - Permanent .

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1:51 AM

Y Monday, November 2, 2009

. Today . Hubs & me without make-up . Bad complexion .

. 31st Oct . Halloween .
. Making brownies for Hubs on Halloween . No party , nth . Spend the Halloween shopping wif Eileen & came back home & baked brownies for Hubs as promised to be a surprise for him on Sunday when he book out . Reason for brownie ?? . Hahas , cuz he says wanna slim down . And i don`t wan him tO !! . So i thought , he likes chocolates . So i decided to make brownies for him . Fulfilling his likings & me not letting him slim down at the same time .. Hahas . Told him tat i wan him the way he is .

. While mixing the brownie mixtures .

. Evening the mixtures to the baking tray .

. While being in the oven . Half way there !! .

. 1st Nov , Hubs book out day .

. Decorated Hubs plate .

. AND DONE !! . End product . Love brownie for Hubs :) Apologies . Hav to tilt yr head a lil to see the full picture cuz i forgot to rotate it . Hah ...

. Well , told Hubs to wait at the pool side & brought the surprise down for him . And the picture on top ?? . Nice eh . It was the mood hiding at the edge of the building roof . Really pretty eh :)

. The end mess . End of tat . Hubs & i walked all the way to the nearby HDB & bought ciggs . Quiet night , filled wif our voice . And we ended up at the fitness corner both talking on the phone & exchanging our phone to talk to our caller . Kinda lame eh ?? . But the quietness ard was quite fulfilling for me thou . Sometimes , we need not go beautiful places nor expensive place to be happy . Being wif the one u love . A HDB fitness corner is enough ...

. P.S : Everything stopped when we`re home . . . . When there`s another truth for me to find out . Another lie to break the heart u`ve broken . When i was home on a Halloween night , happily making something for u . Where were u ?? . And wat u did ?? ....

. Updated playlist again . Te Amo by Rihanna .

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9:27 PM

Y Monday, October 26, 2009

. Times when it hurts .....

. Couldn`t live with the pain , couldn`t be strong , couldn`t stop . The only happiness i had even left . All my hopes , my dreams to be wif u & u growing day by day in me . U stopped at the week when u`re suppose to hav yr first beat of life . All the unfairness , all the hurts . Itz all on me . Yet u nev stopped it for me . Yet u didn`t wan me to ... I could understand , but .... U didn`t know tat was a test to u . A test tat broke my heart again ... It made me realised tat u`ve nev seen the hurt , u`ve nev seen the unfairness ... I`m the only one . Against the whole world . Not u & me . Fighting these hurts on my own . ALL ALONE ... Yet yr ans made a wrong choice . In still being unfair . In making me realised tat u`ve not seen . Not seen the hurt u`ve done to me . U`ve not seen tat she is the reason tatz hurting me . Yet u gave me tat ans . If having a person but not him protecting u after so much hurts . Watz the point then ..

. The pain of betrayal , the pain of lies , the pain of her , the pain of yr family . THE PAIN OF LOSING EVERYTHING U HAD . THE PAIN OF LOSING YR ONLY HOPE . THE PAIN OF LOSING YR ONLY HAPPINESS . THE PAIN OF LOSING YOU .. THE PAIN OF LOSING YOU !!! . I CAN`T TAKE THE PAIN . I CAN NO LONGER STAY STRONG . THE PAIN OF LOSING YR OWN CHILD KNOWING WHEN SHE IS SUPPOSE TO HAV A HEARTBEAT WEEK !!!!!!!! . ALL THE PAINS , ALL THE HURTS , ALL THE LIES , ALL THE BETRAYAL , ALL THE STUFF SHE GAVE TO ME . DEAR LORD . STOP ALLL THE HURTS . BRING ME AWAY . BACK TO HER . WHY ?? . WHY LEAVE ME HERE , SUFFERING ALL THE PAINS ALONE ?? . WHY LEAVE ME HERE TO SUFFER ?? . WHY ?? . WHY LEAVE ME HERE TO BE THE ONE TATZ NOT DOING ANYTHING & GETS EVERYTHING ?? . JUZ .......... BRING ME AWAY . I WANNA LEAVE . BUT A MOMENT OF TAT COULD END EVERY PAIN . BUT WILL LAST AN ETERNITY PAIN TO MY LOVES .
. I COULDN`T . COULDN`T TAKE THE PAIN ANYMORE ......

. Updated playlist Beyonce`s " Broken Hearted Girl "

P.S: . Itz juz a picture i took from the internet .

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6:23 PM

Y Thursday, October 1, 2009

. Yesterday , it happened . And i`ll nev forget how u treated me & all those things u did behind me . I cried my heart out last night . Today .... i`ll nev cry for u again ...

. back to relaxing life of living in the high society .

. Apologies for neglecting this page again readers , mayb there`s no more readers tOo ?? . Hahas . Alright, shall blog a lil of my day today . I`m back being sick . Cough , running nose , body ache & tummy ache . Woke up in a cold evening & decided to went down in my bikini for a hot jacuzzi to help clear my block nose . It was great being in a hot tub wif the cold wind blowing . Make me think of the time when i was staying in New Zealand . Seldom Singapore will feel so cold . ( brb , somebody bought Mac fries for me when i`m craving for it . Gonna eat it before it turns cold . Will be back to blog in 15 ?? . )

. Came home & had a milk bubble bath . Picture has no bubbles ?? . Hah , Cuz itz after me bathing in it & bubbles are gone . Finally had sometime to pamper myself . Below are some pictures of the products used during bath . Not as many as i use to put in . But itz essential . Hah .

. One of the expensive bottle . Lancome`s body massage gel . Favourite of mine . It has the same scent of a perfume i had . For massaging & removes dead skin on our body .

. Body Shop`s milk for better & smoother skin .

. Ylang Ylang oil bath essence for relaxation .

. During bath , did face mask too . Itz sometime , really had been . And it feels good . Felt much cleaner , much fresher . Even though i will nev be able tp wash away the dirtiness u did to me & those emotion . But having a cleaner body makes everything feels much better . Came out from a hot bath . Had long sleeves on and had dinner wif family . After dinner . Mooncake & Tea out at the balcony wif family . A healthier , happier & lovelier life wif family . Had medication for flu & cough . Guess i`ll hav a good night slp and prepared for an Advertisement shoot tmr !! . Hah :) stop doing modelling for some reasons . But now itz back to life . Will see ya tmr babe !! . Gonna turn in my comfy bed alone wif my bed lights on & tv on till i fall asleep .

. Life still goes on . Till then i found someone to share all this wif me . . . Gonna tuck in wif baby now .

. P.S : I`ll nev forget . . .

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10:55 PM

Y Monday, September 28, 2009

. Edited my playlist again . This song by Dream BU ZHI DE will be my first chinese song on my blog . As i`m not a very chinese song kinda person . But, was listening to this song in one of my fren`s car & found it very meaningful . So decided to upload it on my blog . Listen to my pains then ...

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12:58 AM

Y Tuesday, September 22, 2009

. Again , on friday . The usual club wif Jen , Long , Koon & Mei .

. We planned to juz chilled . But went to PH again as others we full .

. All weren`t really prepared to hit the club . So no much pictures taken tOo . Juz enjoy this few .

. Saturday out wif Jen & fren . Chill .

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2:02 AM

Y Sunday, August 30, 2009

. Saturday , 29th August 20o9 . August gonna end real soon . Alright , met darling daphie & Xmei for dinner at Cine . Chicago SteakHouse . Ouh wait .... JEN !! . U nev go i osO got free drink la !!!! . His brother recognises me and talked to me okay !? . No need u . Hmmph !! . Muhahahhahaas .

. After dinner 3 of us hit the usual club again . Bert & Jason was there waiting for us outside Boiler . They were watching soccer . So the 3 of us cam whored alot in the ladies . For half an hour !! . Alright , here are some pictures . Didn`t arrange them cuz blogger seems to hav some problems ?? . So enjoy the pictures as it is . Some are pretttty lame though :) hees .

. Sweet lil Xmei :)

. Need no introduction to this lady eh ?? .

. This is how ah Lians sit . I`m not ah lian . Juz pretending hOr .

. Xmei & sleeping buddah . Hahahas .

. Muhahahahahs . Yoga hOr !! . Muhahahas . Juz kidding . I don`t take Yoga , i was a ballerina when i was young . Hees . Juz kidding la . I`ve learnt piano , violin , abacus and such but i dunnO why i nev learn ballet . Hey , got culture hOr !! . But i forgot how to play now already though .

. Okay .... SLAP ME PLZ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .

. Muhahahhahahas . Siaoo .

. Puffer-fish koon . All siao one , take picture don`t wanna take properly .

. Lil hugs from us before signing off ... Tata world :D

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10:42 PM

Y Thursday, August 27, 2009

. Darlings bringing her Darling baby to my place . 26th August 2o09 .

. My love ones . Xian , Mom & Zayven & Ong lai . Hahas .

. Zayven & JIE JIE ( not ah yi . Don`t wanna sound so old hOr !! ) . Hahas . Alright, itz all abt pictures . And the pictures looks as though i`m the mom tat gave birth and darlings come visit . Muahahhaaas . Juz kidding .

. Mom ( Ah ma ) & Zayven . Mom looks like she`s getting older . But no matter wat . I`ll always love u . Get well soon mom . During the whole time mom keep carrying Zayven until she return to Xian bec her hands are tired . Hhahas . She loves babies . And she`s damn very unfair . When Xian is pregnant she peel the shell off the prawns for her . AUTOMATICALLY one hor !! . But if i ask her peel hOr ?? . She ask me don`t eat sua -.-

. MOmmies and baby . Hahahars . I oso mommy hOr !! . Tinklebell .....

. My ong lai . Hhahas .

. Frenz since Kindergarten Xian & Eileen since primary sch . I love the both of u . Even though we`re seldom in contact . But if anything juz ring me anytime i`ll still be there yea ?? .

. Lastly , the frenz & Baby Zayven . The next time we`ll 3 carry one each on our lap and take a picture like tat again . Xian . I wan girl . So can marry Zayven !! . MUHAHAHAHAHHAAS !! . Eileen . u give birth to boy osO okay ?? . So my girl girl can hav 2 choice . MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS !!! . Like tat 2 boys can snatch 1 girl . Okay la . Don`t fight okay ?? . See which boy more handsome i let my girl girl marry to who okay ?? . I mean real baby girl hOr . Not Tinklebell . Tinklebell belongs wif me . Hahahaas . Love u guys . Thanks for coming even though u very sucks say give my mom see Zayven not give me see . Each shit la !! . Hahahas . Xian . Wish u happiness forever . Seeing u like tat now really blissful happy for u . Ong lai !! . Got bf muz bring give me see hOr . Xian too fast get married first . Ong lai our both wedding put together hOr ?? . Hhahhahas . Okay lame . This kind like we young then talk abt it one . Okay now i si beay lame . I stop i stop okay ?? . Love u guys :)

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6:15 PM

Y Tuesday, August 25, 2009

. Taken on saturday 23rd August before hitting the club wif darling Koon , Kwan & Frenz . Thanks for keeping me company & bec of me quarrelled wif Bert . Sorry man . Saturday was a fcuking unlucky day . Reached the club , my heels gave off . So cab all the way home to get changed . And drove out . And kanna bang by a van -.- . Damn fed up man . Back to the club , the que was damn long even for members . And then !? . While i was outside , even got picked up by uncle -.- ask me wan join them in Dragonfly instead ?? . Okay . FINE . I shooked him off . While Que-ing outside this girl keep banging on me . Yes, i wasn`t in a good mood so even she apologised i diao her . And her ugly fren diao back . I dunno why . But it juz sounds so ah lian huh ?? . In the club keep getting bang by another guy who was dancing like crazy . This time i remained cool . But Kwan`s fren was nice enough and went to stand on my side so i don`t get banged when he heard me complaining to Koon . For the night , thanks those guys . They`re really protective like bodyguards . Even me & Koon went to smoke one of them followed so nth will happen . And while walking some really acted like a bodyguard to push those who were in our way . Hees . Thanks ppl . While in smoking drea met the girl again who bang on me . But this time she apologised again and i told her itz was fine i was really in a bad mood tatz why i din`t ans her and she keep saying i`m fierce -.- kanna POR abit by her still . So not tat bad la . Hahas .
. After the club . Many stuff happened . So let`s skip it . Really sick of it though .

. After theme party today . Iziit nicer tat i`m in short hair or long ?? . Hah . Okay my leg is ugly wif those scar due to some incident happened before . Thanks Wei Chang , u`re really a responsible guy to keep the party going :)

. Hav nth much to blog abt now . Kinda dunno wat to say but updating straight to the point . Many stuff hav been happening . And i dunno now . Where am i heading to...

. P.S : Readers . Plz Pray tat life will be easier for me now . And pray for my mom`s health and family to be save and healthy .

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1:50 AM

Y Friday, August 21, 2009

. 2Oth August 2009 . Movie wif Jen @ Cine .

. Itz been sometime since i`m out wif Jen . Itz been like a million years since i took a MRT . Lil stuff ytd but brought back lotsa memories .

. Itz been sometime since we took pictures together too .

. Look at the eye bags of mine .

. Waiting for the last train home .

. Ghost in the train . Hahas . She`s being lame . Watched " Where Got Ghost ?? " ytd . It was lame . Especially the last story . Kinda regret watching it . Funny . Yes . But it was not a good show still . After movies got the last train to Tanah Merah and went for supper at Simpang . She came over my place to stay .

. And ytd night . My room was crowded . 3 person sleeping in my small room plus Tinklebell . 1 snoring beside me . The other snoring under my feet . Hah . Itz kinda warm to hav my room crowded wif ppl and slp beside me when itz on the lunar 7th month . Feels save .

. Okay tata . Lazy to blog much .

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9:27 PM

Y Monday, August 17, 2009

. New INK on .

. Last picture of my clean thigh took on the 13th august before i got my ink on for the rest of my life .

. Pictures during INK-ing . 16th August .

. I may be smiling may look relaxed . Yea . But itz fucking painful . But it was alright for me . UNTIL hours later and it starts to swell . IT WAS HELL . In the beginning i still could joke and laugh . When itz gonna end i hope Jen would juz stop talking to me . Muhahahas . Thanks for the company dear .

. I`m strong huh . 5 needles for outline . 15 needles for shadings . My artist told me lotsa story abt how ppl couldn't take the pain . Most of them would faint & there more absurd once . But i`m strong enough la huh still can laugh . LOL . GIRL POWER !! .

. Pictures are not according to sequence . Sth seem to be wrong wif blogspot . So yea . Wat was inked on are not suppose to show toO . COPYRIGHTs from me u see ?? . Hahars . Itz sth tat i thought of myself to get it inked on and itz meaningful to me .

. Right , shall end here .

. U`re not sorry -Taylor Swift .

12.53am

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11:16 PM

Y Tuesday, August 4, 2009

. 3rd August 2009 .
. Apologies for neglecting this page . But for today , let me go personal . I hav no one else to turn tO even the biggest, the dumbest side of me , the most hurting for me & others has happened in my life . Everything was ugly . Everything was a lie . I had enough . Nev wanna hurt others . But wif yr actions yr lies u made it all . I can`t believe how stupid i am . To belief u time & time again . To forgive u time & time again . And all ?? . I was all alone ... Sitting downstairs , going crazy , crying & hurting myself . She , she has yr family side . She and yr family was waiting for u to go hOme . To settle everything . And me ?? . i hav NO ONE at all . NO one . I`m the one tat hurt there too BUT why . I did nth wrong . All was u . And all was on me . Each time , i found out abt u . U said all u wan & i CAN`T BELIEVE how STUPID I am to belief u . To forgive u . And today , wif my own eyes . I`ve seen it all . U holding her back . When u said it was over . U lying to me when she`s not there . When dunnO u or her purposely called me to let me hear her presence wif u . And u can lie abt it . Until i see it wif my own eyes . Don`t lie to me anymore . I don`t deserve all this shit . NOT at all . Knowing u for so long it was even stupid to be wif u . But WHY !? . U hav done the ugliest things on earth . But why ?? . WHY do i even hav to hurt myself ?? . I`m not some girls who wants u even how ugly yr past , yr presence and who u are now . I don`t need yr money nor yr families . My family can give me better . I don`t need yr car neither , my family can give me better . I don`t need u to support me , cuz i can support myself and u at the same time . BUT WHY !? . All i needed was u to NOT LIE , was for u TO BE FAITHFUL AND TRUTHFUL . How i lost my frenz and my family to be wif u . I don`t need anything from u . But u gave me everything . EVERYTHING tat a girl WOULDN`T WANT . Not only me , u hurt innocent party . Why muz i stay ?? . And why am i staying !? . Itz not tat i`m some CHEAP girls u know tat i hav to faster get myself SOLD out . Itz not tat i don`t hav education nOr future to wan somebody to support . Itz not tat my family is poor tat i hav to find a better family to support . NO . NOT AT ALL . Not even a single bit . But why am i staying wif u ?? . I did nth wrong at all to u before . Why are u treating me like this . And who i hav ?? . She got hurted , at least . She could go back to yr home . Get comfort get love . And me who didn`t do anything wrong at all , who`s the one tat being hurt by YOU . I get nth . I suffered all ALONE downstairs after Pat left . All ALONE . Each time i always pray to god . WHY ?? . Why muz u give me this kinda life when i`ve not done anything at ALL . For HIM , i got wat i deserve bec i did not treat him well wif my temper when he treated me the best . But i learnt . I`ve not showed any temper when u didn`t do anything wrong . I try my best to change , to belief u , to give u chance . ANd this is all i get . EVERYTHING WAS A LIE . I`ve hurt u wif my temper . I`m sorry . But u`ve hurt me even more . And plz .. BE FAIRER . I DIDN`T DO ANYTHING WRONG . PLZ DON`T DO THIS to me anymore .

. I`ve helped u even as fren through yr downfall through yr troubles . I told u , i nev wanna hav anything in return . Juz don`t lie to me , don`t hurt me . Each time i found out i gave u chance . I forgave u . But now ?? .

. U told me , i nev asked for anything . Tatz why u nev gave me anything . No bags , no shoes , no wallet , no ANYTHING . Bec u said i nev ask . Even a cab fare home or watever . I nev took from u . I told u all i wan is truth , love , faithfulness & commitment . I told u , U CAN`T THEN LEAVE . Cuz we don`t hav to suffer together . U promised the WHOLE WORLD . U hav not did a single bit . I gave u time and kept quiet . But don`t give me anything tat i NEV ASKED for ...

. I`ve got nobody to turn to but here . ANd it was a bec of u .....

. I`m holding all the hurts alone . ALL ALONE . Can someone be here . Can someone care for me ?? . Plz . I nev turn to my parents bec they are very traditional . I`ve got to drink all alone to hide my sorrows , I gotta type this all alone while crying . Is this the only way to let out my sorrows ?? . I`m hurt . I`m really am , i`m alone . I`m really am . Can someone stay wif me ?? . Can someone be here wif me ?? . I don`t wan my life to be like this . I don`t wan . So wat a family is rich . So rich . SO WAT !? . I rather be poor and happy . I rather be ugly and being loved . I don`t wan to be typing while i`m half tipsy and crying all alone . NOBODY CARE CARE FOR ME . NOBODY IS HERE . WHY IZIIT SO UNFAIR . WHY !? . WHEN I DON`T DO ANYTHING WRONG , EVERYBODY PUT THE FAULT ON ME . I DON`T WAN GO THROUGH MY LIFE IN DARKNESS ANYMORE . I DON`T WAN TO LAY IN HOSPITAL BED ALONE AGAIN ALONE . I`M DRINKING ALONE FACING THE BALCONY WIF THE LONELY VIEW . AND TAT HURTS ME EVEN EVEN MORE !!!! . I NEV DO ANYTHING WRONG . WHY GOD WHY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . WHY MUZ U DO THIS TO ME !!!! . I HAD ENOUGH OF THE PAST WHY MUZ U DO THIS AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . U SAVED MUMMY FROM HER HURT LET HER BUILT UP EVERYTHING . BUT WHY . I WAN GET LOVE . I WANNA GO CRY TO MUMMY AND GET HUGS WHEN I`M HURT . BUT I CAN`T . CUZ I KNOW MUMMY WILL HATE HIM AND I DON`T WAN . AND WAT ?? . I DON`T HAV A SIBILING TO TURN TO BEC MY ONLY BROTHER DON`T TALK TO ME AND HIT ME WHEN I`M YOUNG . SO TELL ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . WATZ THE USE OF BEING IN A RICH FAMILY AND GOT NO LOVE . NOT EVEN FROM A BF !!!!!!!!!!?????????????? . WHO ONLY KNOWS HOW TO HURT U . WHO ONLY KNOWS HOW TO LIE . TELL ME !!!!!!! . I DON`T HAV LOVE , I TREAT MY FREN SO FUCKING WELL . THE FIRST FREN WHO IS WIF ME WHEN I FIRST GOT INTO SECONDARY SCH . BUT BETRAYING ME AND BIRTCHING BEHIND MY BACK BEC SHE GOT SOME OTHER FREN WHO INFULENCE HER . WHOM A NICE GIRL TURN INTO A BITCH AFTER U GROW UP WIF HER AND SHE`S GOT HER NEW FRENZ . I`M HURT . I`M ALWAYS BUT I NEV SHOWED . GOD , TAKE ME AWAY !!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . STOP THE HURT , STOP THE PAIN FROM FRENZ , FAMILY AND RELATIONSHIP EVEN RELATIONSHIP PARENTS WHO CALL U TO SCOLD WHENEVER WHEN I DIDN`T DO ANYTHING . WHOM U HELP SO MUCH EVEN HE OWES PPL MONEY U HAV TO TAKE OUT YR LIL ALLOWNCE TO HELP HIM . WHO U NEV EVER EXPECT ANYTHING BUT LOVE AND FAITHFULNESS . GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . PLZ SAVE ME . I`M HURT ENOUGH FROM PAST RELAIONSHIP . NOW !'? . FROM FRENZ , FAMILY AND SAME RELATIONSHIP . I DON`T WAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . I THINK TAT I WAS ALWAYS NICE . TO SAVE FRENZ WHO QUARREL . TO SAVE PPL . TO EVERYTHING I THINK OF PPL MPORE THAN MYSELF . BUT WHY IS PPL TREATING ME LIKE THIS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . BEC I BORN IN RICH FAMILY ?????????????????. BEC PPL LOVE ME WHEN I NEV MAKE THEM LOVE ME ?????????????????? . BEC PPL JEALOUSY WHEN I DIDN`T DO ANYTHING ?????????????????????? . BEC I LOVE THE WRONG GUY OVER AND OVER AGAIN . GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . PLZ . I NEV NEV EVER DO ANYTHING WRONG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . THE ONLY THING I`M WRONG NOW IS LOVING THE WRONG GUY AND BEING STUPID !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . AND I`M SUFFERING ALL THIS BY MYSELF . U KNOW !? . MYSELF . DEAR LORD JESUS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . U TOUCHED ME BEFORE . I BELIEVED IN U SO MUCH BEFORE . BUT NOW WAT ARE U GIVING TO ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . I HATE MY LIFE . NO MATTER IF I`M IN A RICH FAMILY . I WAS NEV PROUD . BEC MOM TAUGHT ME NEV BE PROUD BEC SHE CLIMB INTO HER STATUS TODAY WIF HER OWN HANDS . BEC WE WERE NEV BORN IN A RICH FAMILY UNTIL THEY CLIMBBED !!!!!!!!!! . I HAV NEV WANNA BE HURT AND NEV WANNA HURT OTHERS . NOW OTHER GIRL IS HURT . NOW I`M EVEN MORE HURT . PLZ TAKE ME BACK WIF U GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! . PLZ ............................................................... I`M HURTING .

. 4.14 am .

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2:26 AM

Y Friday, July 10, 2009

. Credits : Joe Hani .

. I`m back people !! . Really apologise for not updating this page for so long . Seems like a hundred when i came back to my blog . Hah , was really lazy & didn`t hav the time . Right , i`ll update few of the major stuff now yea . Guess i won`t like a writer like i use to . So , enjoy this short post ( If it`ll be la . Hah, cuz i dunnO how much are typed after my fingers stop )

. Mervin`s bday .

. Wif company & close frenz at St James . Happy Birthday boy :)

. Desmond`s birthday .

. A surprise planned by Pat for his birthday in a pub at Princep wif company . The whole level was booked by her for her boy .

. All the girls & the birthday boy :)

. Happy Birthday to Stefan on the same day toO :)

. Zouk wif Darling Daphie , family & family frenz on the 24th of June .. Zouk Pary Princess . Thanks Kwan for the title :) .

. Eng Kwan , me , Lay Koon & Eng kiat . I`m Lay Yee part of the family too . Hah !! .. Big sis , me , Hossan Leong & Daph .

. Video of Hossan Leong dancing on stage .

. After Zouk which was tooooo crowded , we went over to our usual club again . St. James . And got myself a lil hurt & disfigured there bec of a bloody Thai girl dancing on stage . Nope , didn`t fight . But juz a lil push & kick for her down the stage when she has offended the whole girls on stage & coming of Daphie tatz why i did tat . Girl , u may wanna go back to Thailand . As u can see , nobody really welcomes u . Even the guy who bought u here . The girls was really pissed tat after pushing her down the guy dragged her away the stage of girls pointed middle finge at her wif me . And see the reason why even the bouncer didn`t stop me ?? . I guess St.James really wan u out toO .

. Disfigured by her bloody nails . She really likes pointy stuff . I wonder how sharp are her nails , she fell off the stage . While fallin she gave me a present .

. And my thigh . Guess it done by her heels when she fell . Tatz why i said , she seems to love pointy and sharp stuff . HATE Thai girls , they`re like China woman . Only go for guys for money , break ppl family up & betraying their own body . Take this _l_ bitches .

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6:50 PM

Y Saturday, June 6, 2009

. Happy Birthday my dear SUPERSTAR Hong YuYang !! .

. Celebration at Raining Bar on the 5th for YuYang`s birthday wif afew close frenz .

. The Star of the public . The star of our eyes . The star of the night . The birthday boy Hong YuYang .

. Birthday cake bought by me & Mer .

. Stupid boy touched the cake .

. Making his wish . He told us was to wish everybody life to be filled wif happiness . Make a wish for yrself instead okay ?? .

. Brothers .. Good girlfrenz .. Gera :). NAH !! .. Ken ... NICE !? .. The girls .. Me & Kaiq .

New song added last few days , Hush Hush by PussyCat Dolls & Roll the Credits by Paula Deanda

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5:34 PM

Y Tuesday, June 2, 2009

. Gonna take this very special day to make a marking on my blog . Itz Tinkle`s first birthday :) and i hope there won`t be a last . Well , through my busy & tiring day . I told myself tat i muz blog today . So here i am . Wishing my BABY a very HAPPY 1 YEAR OLD !! .. My present to my baby , a pool bath . As i know she love playing wif waters & mummy don`t allow her to bathe in the bathtub anymore . So bought her a pool bath hoping tat every bath time will be a enjoyable one:)

Mummy`s prayer:

. I pray tat Tinklebell will live life happily wif great health & beauty . I`ll treasure every single moment wif u & promise tat i`ll nev beat or scold u unnecessarily . Life is short , mummy will always love u forever whether u`re wif me or without me . One day looking back to this post mayb i`ll break down . Mayb u`ll nev understand wat mummy says . But i hope tat through my actions u know tat how much mummy loves u & will nev give u up for anything in the world . Plz stay healthy & happy . Dear god plz don`t ever take Tinkle away from me like how u took scooby . I will always love Tinkle wholeheartedly . & May god`s protection be on Tinkle .

Amen.

. 31st May 2009 . Tinkle`s birthday celebration at my place .

. Tinklebell`s birthday cake .

. Doggy foods . Things were planned too last minute . Food ordered came to be a great disappointment . Hav to drive to get some other snacks & meal for doggies . But still ther food wasn`t finished . Tinkle was moody , didn`t wanna drink nor eat when other doggies were ard . It was kinda heart-aching for me to see her like tat though . But hope the other doggies enjoyed themselves especially Mafia :)

. My baby hiding behind the cushions . When i first came up wif the other doggies Tinkle got so scared tat she climbed up the sofa & rushed behind the cushions to get herself protected . Didn`t expect this to happen either . Cuz when she still was young , she didn`t even cared abt King`s presence when i bought her there . For other doggies she met outside , she always act like a princess when other doggis wanna make fren wif her . She`ll turn away . Well didn`t expect this to happen . The time upstairs , she was sitting on the chair the whole time & other doggies socialising themselves . Itz didn`t turn out as it expected . But still , hope Tinkle is happy .

. Bought the doggies down for a walk at the same time bringing Ming Kai & Brandon up .

. The humans tat night . Remus & Ming Kai .

. Mr big size . Brandon .

. Messed i created for pouring the fish food into the bottle . Hahahars . Hav to trouble so many to help clear up . Itz even more pai sae when itz only after i scold Brandon dumb .

Me : " U stupid ah dunno how to pour , pour until like tat ."

Brandon : " Okay lOrs , u pour "

* Taking the packet of food & poured it too anxiously . Then ... Spilled everything "

Brandon " . Hahahars !! "

-__________-'"

. Yeap if u dunnO i`ve got muscular hands . And itz disgusting . I know ...

. Mr King King . Koon & Kwan`s doggy . He drank so much water & went to pee on my carpet . One of them is enough to fill my pool downstairs . Hahahars !! .

. The King is tired .

. Mafia !! . Remus`s doggy . He`s cute . Kinda like ... YIAO GUI ( hungry ghost ) which is why it makes him cute . Hahahars . The moment he came in , he went to eat my Tinkle`s dinner . Hahars . He love sleeping at this spot . Dunno why either , wif 3 pots supporting his back . Cute eh , eat so much but still so skinny . Unlike yr owner . Anyway . Hope u`ll recover soon Mafia !!

. Cake cutting for Tinklebell :)

. Me & my baby birthday girl .. Giving my baby a lil peck on her head like usual .. Blowing off her birthday cake`s candle .. " Auntie " Daph wif Tinklebell .. Auntie Daph communicating wif Tinkle " Why are u so moody today huh lil girl ?? . Itz yr birthday party u know ?? .". Kwan settling down the doggies .. Everybody :). Doggy & doggy families :). Baby sleeping after a tiring night .

. P.S : To my dear frenz who came . I really appreciated tat night very much . Thanks for turning up even though it was such a last min preparation . I`m really thankful for yr presence . For me , itz sth tatz considered once in a lifetime . Time will to pass , and i can nev turn back a first birthday for my baby again . And having u guys here is really heartwarming even though it wasn`t a very glamorous or mayb a big affair . I hoped u enjoyed tat lil party . And i really thank those whom i nev expect to come & came . And thanks Remus , Koon & Kwan for bringing yr lil fur fren along . It wasn`t easy to handle dogs at a party . This is the reason why i`m even more touch wif yr presence . Thank u all . Thank Kai & Brandon for coming tOo . Love u all :)

. After the night . Koon , Kwan , Brandon & I all went out for a lil drink .

. 1st May counting down to her actual birthday on the 2nd wif TinkleBell . Made a paw print to keep the beautiful memory of her first birthday .. Printing her paw on the mould when the clock stroked 12 am .. One last time . Happy birthday my baby . Mummy love u forever .

. 29th May . Picture of our group after presentation in sch .

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10:34 PM

Y Friday, May 29, 2009

. Back for updates .

. 28th May .

. School as usual , but during the break . I decided to go home . Why ?? . I suddenly realized tat i`l outta cash . Like so sudden u bec bankrupt . Feeling very insecure without money on me . I decided to return home halfway through . Useless eh ?? .

. Walking our way to West Mall during break time we saw this dead snake . Kinda cool to see snakes in Singapore eh ?? . But itz half decomposed & ants are crawling over it . Kinda yucky though .

. Was having my rest at home . The guys & Xiu decided to come over my place for a swim . Itz been along time since i stepped down to the waters so decided to join them too since i`m putting on weights .. 2 fats & 2 skinnies swimming the the pool . Hah .

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1:12 AM

Y Sunday, May 24, 2009

. Before starting my entry on yesterday , would like to share this video wif u guys . I came abt this video on Eng Kwan`s page on FB . Find it kinda cute so here iziit sharing wif u guys . Hope it enjoyed :)

. 23rd May . The usual club , power house . To be honest . Yest SUCKS big time . It was my worst clubbing experience . I dunno why , but nody got high ( well , except for Xmei ) & everybody was squeezing ard like kanna cramped in a sardine can . It totally sucks like hell . And it made me almost pull some bitches hair outta their sculp . Most of all . The DJ tat night sucks big time . Adding fuels to the fire , fren got injured in fights . So , tat is how much the night sucks last night .

. Itz been so long i got myself prepared for a night of fun & it turn out to be such an uglg night . Well lovelies . Let`s take a rest & start sometime again . For now i gotta rush through projects tat i haven`t start & deadline is drawing so nearrrrrrrr . And i`ve gotta say i`ve let my group down . They`ve been busying doing projects & i`ve not helped in a bit . Graphs , here i am searching for u . Anybody hav graphs on Coffee & Cereal production through each year email me yea ?? . Hahahars . But itz still surprising tat i`ve passes all of the few test taken previously when i`ve skipped sch so much & not attending lessons . Let to say i`ll study on my own accord . Hahahars . Let`s proceed to pictures huh .

. In the noon , went to pick darling kooning & kwanie up and went for a lil shopping spree at Parkway .

. Daphie bought her things over my place & prepare to hit the club together .

. And we brought my lil Tinklebell for a walk downstairs :) hees . At the same time fetching the guys up from the guard house .

. In the club , Xmei & other guys were there . Didn`t take much pictures though .

. Yeap , shall not hide anymore . From the picture is obvious tat i`m pregnant isn`t it ?? . Hahahahahas . Juz kidding .

. Forever crazy Mei ..

. Met the LONG TIME NO SEE Darry there . Hahahrs .

. I hate my hair .

. On the dancefloor .

. Somebody`s powerful storage . He vomited juz outside the toilet . Itz like ?? . Afew steps to the door and u can vomit there . I was saying to the China aunty " TA MA DE , ZE ZONG REN hors !! . SHI TA MA DE . " Itz was meant to be a joke la . But if the aunty get another hint abt ZE ZONG REN ZAI ZI LI TU BU DONG SHA LE DOU SHAO SHU . Hees , sorry ah . A lil Channel 8 hOrs . Lazy to translate to English .

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8:16 PM

Y Wednesday, May 20, 2009

. Alright ~!! . Back for updates . Sorry darlings tat it took so long to get hold of the pictures . Here i am tO update yea . If ya like any of the pictures PM me . I`ll send ya if i`m online . Hahars . Alright , guess these posts are really over-dued .

. But first of all , hav to thank mom for buying me a diamond ring ytd . Will reveal how it looks like when i got it cuz it has to be customed made . Any interest in diamonds u can contact me & i`ll direct u to the right person . Will talk more abt it when my ring is here yea ?? .

. Kai & " Frances Teo " at Zoe`s chalet on the 8th May . Did i his name correctly ?? . Don`t think so . But i know how to spell M.O.U.S.T.A.C.H.E alright .

. 9th May . Back to St. James after so long wif Darling daphie , Kwan , YY , Mer & group . In members area this time then down for dance . Didn`t take much pictures on tat day cuz i was busy enjoying time wif darlings & things didn`t work out fine after that tat night .

. Kwanie & I . I know i look much uglier wif the new hair .

. Darling <3

. Pictures of drunkards . Holy shit did a grass somersault .. Vomiting Mer at the back and putting up a strong front YuYang .

. 10th May . Kyle`s chalet @ Downtown East . Happy 21st Birthday Mr Shum !! .

. 1st day of chalet . Birthday boy engrossed wif his new HTC Diamond touch 2 . I think it is ah . Hahahahars . Cuz i dunnO much abt technology man !! .. 2nd day of chalet . Jernning ( Kyle`s GF ) & Birthday boy .. They call it the brother`s shoot . More to it below .. Spot Bear`s jiao bin .

-16th May

. Guess my blog is getting more boring , my entry & my language sucks after so long .

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10:54 PM

Y Friday, May 8, 2009

. HOLA world !! . Back for updates . Gonna rush to finish this update as i`ve gotta rush to get sth for Zoe . Itz her Bday chalet tonight . So .. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZOE !! .

. Decide to update still , as today is the only time i`m free . Cuz i skipped sch again . Muahahahas . Woke up late u see ..

. Waking up wif a surprised note from someone . Hah . I didn`t know he came & even bought me breakfast . No wonder he knows tat i didn`t wanna ans his call while i`m asleep . Sorry man . Sleeping ma !! . Muahahahas . Anyway , thanks for the breakfast even u`re late for work . Tat was really sweet of u :) appreciate it alot .

. Yuyang bought Tiramisu for me after his work on the day Quan Yi Feng was here .

. Happy belated birthday my lovely Kimmy !! . 7 years & still counting . Lubb euu ~ !! .

. Celebrated on th 25th . Actual birthday on the 28th . Log on to Kim`s blog for more updates & pictures :)http://kim-snap-you.blogspot.com

. A video of wat we`ll do when we`re high on liquor . . . .

. Talking to a purse ......

. On the 28th . Toni & Guy hair event .

. Theme : Virtual Life .

. Jen was pulled there by me . Muhahahas . So to say , she`s a hair model on tat day tOo .. Mer`s was there tOo as a hair model for Essensual .. My hair artist . Hiyo .. My hair artist & Make up artist . . Jen look like a barbarian doesn`t she ?? . But her artist work there was like the most creative in all i saw there .

. Sorry sugars , kinda lazy to update so there`s nth much describe on the posts . Will continue to some random post yea .

. Tinkle playing wif her new toy on the 1st of May . Toy bought for her the day before when i brought her out shopping again .

. Tinkle drives tOo . Muhahhahas . On Kor`s car seat on the 4th may .

. Now some random pictures of my lammy classmate . First, flower top Alica .

. Second , Ms Good Looking . She`ll even stick herself up the board to stick to the title . Okay , i know i`m the one being lame now .... Excuse me la huh . Itz been sometime since i update blog , i dunno wat else to type . Making it worst is my lazy brain ain`t working . Slept too long i guess ...

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6:41 PM

Y Wednesday, May 6, 2009

. Updated playlist again :D this time itz 3 of my favourite new songs . Enjoy them !! . Don`t complain tat itz KP hOrs !! . Can press pause button or forward button if ya guys don`t like .

- Taking back my love
- Jai Ho
-My lips like sugar

. Misses . Lazy to update . Hahahars . Will be back for updates !! .

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6:54 PM

Y Monday, May 4, 2009

. A lil update as i`m waiting for someone to come . Parents are overseas .. Like again . I`m broke , and they`re not ard . Who will i take money from !? . Watz worst is , i`m scared . Nobody`s home, brother is always out . Only one left is maid & TinkleBell . Well , for today my brother happy happy host party upstairs . And one of the my brother`s guest is Quan Yi Feng .

. She loves Tinklebell alot alot .

. * I know i look ugly . Wat do u expect ?? . I`m at home !! . *

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9:52 PM

Y Thursday, April 30, 2009

. Apologies people . Been busy so recently tat i`ve got lazy to blog eah time . Will do a short update now & update on various events sooner or later yea ?? . As i`ve spoilt my mouse again . I dunno how . But there`ll be lotsa pictures coming up . So i prefer using a mouse if not it`ll be damn troublesome . Conclusion ?? . I hav a lazy ass ...

. Now to update on afew of my personal stuff .

. 26th . Surprise present from HQ when YY passed it to me at my place . Portrait of me & cards of words .. Today , i was in the cab to sch . I saw somebody who looks really familiar passed by the cab . And itz raining damn heavily . And there he was near the gate in sch juz to pass me the limited edition lipstick from M.A.C & and an apple strudel for breakfast . Somehow a girl will feel touch . But i didn`t . Some things had to be done at the right time . Tat wasn`t the right time . And now knows the abt thinking more than juz to do WAT HE WANTS . But still hav to thank him for doing tat . It was nice . And he bought this lipstick bec i lose mine ( Playboy limited edition ) in ZIRCA .. SHOCK RIGHT !? . On why is the playboy lipstick still here ?? . Itz juz the box . I got shock when i saw it today after i came home from sch . I thought " EH !? . I NEV BRING THERE MEHS ?? ."

. End up it was juz the box tat i didn`t bring . . . .

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11:03 PM

Y Saturday, April 25, 2009

. Some updates after so long . Newsest news to me is MY DADDY juz got ROM !! . Muhahhaas . He suddenly texted me said he got ROM . Well i`m really happy for him though . CONGRATS dad !! . Lotsa love :)

. 22nd April . HAPPY BIRTHDAY MING KAI !! . Actual bday on te 25th :)

. Pictures wif Allan . This is the only pic i got him on my HP . Happy birthday sucka !! . Hope u enjoyed yr day :) U`re the best fighting buddy of mine :D

. And sch started . Some pictures wif my new classmates . I love my classmates . They are all so nice & cute . Hees . I`ve got Ms J & i`m Tyra Banks !! . Muahhahaas .. Bernice , Eunice & Me . Realize they both end wif a NICE ?? . Muhahahas .. This is Ms J ( Hashim ) & Alica !! . My first fren in sch was Alica . She`s one cute lil ass . Muahahhahahas .

. Crazy -.-. And tata !! . Use Alica`s big smile to sign off wif the world :) Hahahars .

. Sorry man . Not in the mood to blog much . Guess i`ve been keeping lotsa things in me tat i broke down in my dream . I couldn`t cry out in my dream . All the unfairness in my life . I dream of them . And i couldn`t cry in my dream . I was actually crying so hard while i`m sleeping tat i`ve woke up . Yea . One day i`ll thank those people for ruining my life ...

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5:39 PM

Y Thursday, April 23, 2009

. P.S : I`ve got a good BF . But i`m still not happy . Itz not me . Itz u .

. U did the best u can be as a BF . But u nev realize how many things u`re doing on the other hand to hurt me . Always u going ard being the good one & i`m the bad one . But who knows the real things behind ?? . All i hav to say is . I`m tired . I really am .

. All u think is abt yrself . Years passed . Why can`t i juz hav a relationship tatz happy . I know there`s many things tat i`ll scold u abt . But u nev thought of the reason why . I`m tired not juz this . And i`m thinking . If we shld juz end it now .............

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11:49 PM

Y Tuesday, April 21, 2009

. Was juz exiting from Carltex wif Jen . And suddenly a guy & a girl was shouting behind . ( Both stylish wif Toni & Guy T-shirt ) . When we turned . Thinking " wat had happened ?? " . The girl straight away asked if i could be her hair model . I`m like . " HUH ?? " . And yeap, i agreed after much conversation , i`ll be a hair model for Toni & Guy . She was thanking me . And tat Jen was saying i`m a model and watever . She was like " tat explains my good body & how she only look for pretty models " . ( But she miss out the part " tat didn`t explain yr height " ) . Hahars . Okay i`m being lame . And comes talking abt my hair & touching them . She says i hav great hav even i hav bleached it before & wat so ever . She even thought i`ve blown dried my hair to give such a silky texture . But nope . Answering to everybody`s qns . I`ve nev blown dried my hair as i`m a lazy person . I had NEVER re-boned my hair as i`ve got high forehead . And i nev went for any treatments . Only once when i permed my hair very long ago . So seeing my hair like tat . Itz bec of Carol Herbal Essence . Muahhahhahaa !! . Juz kidding . But itz is the way it is . No work done to it . But most of all . Baby love my hair . And . Thanks for the hair Tony & Guy found me . Let`s pray nth ugly will be done to my hair then . Hahars . Alright tatz all for the newest update !! .

. Nights ppl .

xOxO

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2:11 AM

Y Saturday, April 18, 2009

. Updated playlist again . Enjoy it ppl :) sorry tat i haven`t been updating . Too lazy . And there`s no time or nth for me to update either . Hees . Will try to update soon :)

. P.S : . I miss my frenz . ( Can`t get no satisfaction )

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10:28 PM

Y Friday, April 10, 2009

. 9th April , bathing session wif Baby TinkleBell .

. Tinkle`s bubble bath .

. Itz been sometime since i`ve bathe Tinkle . Cuz i`m always sleeping late & she can`t bathe late if not she`ll catch a chill . But this time , gave Tinkle a bath straight when i returned from sch . Cuz mummy is not ard to give Tinkle a bath .

. Ha !! . She`s sitting and leaning against me like a baby .

. Tinkle tummy FAT FAT .

. Finished bathing .

. And had a lil swimming session after bath . She`s really scared though . Mayb itz bec i hold her up to kick the waters . Well . Aren`t dogs a swimmer in nature ?? . I still wanna act one teach her to make her scared . KAY KIANG ...

. But i guess baby knows mummy will always be there to protect her eh .

. And she`s here disturbing me while blogging . So noisyyy .

. Video of Tinkle playing wif her favourite toy after bath :)

. And also , HAPPY FIRST MONTH ANNIVERSARY . Or not .

. Didn`t do anything special . Bought baby`s a DKNY perfume . And gave him on the 8th when itz gonna stuck 12 am tatz turning 9th . Well , back to didn`t do anything special . But it was fine as long as we`re together . Watz so unhappy abt then ?? . Things hav change . Yea mayb itz bec of me . I don`t deny & i`m trying to change back . U said there was surprise and such . In the end there weren`t . Don`t go ard saying itz bec of me . I told u i wanna bathe Tinkle and hav a rest as i`m realllly tired after since sch hav started . U came over accompanied me , but i wan to be like my usual day which i nev had for such a long time even during my holidays . On air-con during a hot day in the living room . Watch cartoon till i fall asleep . I wouldn`t know wat u hav in mind if u don`t let me know . And i only fell asleep at 6.30 . But woke up earlier than 8.30 bec u`re throwing tantrums . I slept less than 2 hours only man . Yea , i might not know wat u`re thinking . U say shops close . But even shops open . Wat surprises are there in the shops ?? . I was thinking of resting then go out for meal and catch a movie after tat or sth only . Watever it is . U always go ard saying i`m at fault . Saying i`m the bad one . But i didn`t know wat u`re thinking !! . And itz not tat i didn`t spend the time wif u either right . Always i`m at fault . I`m the bad one . But why don`t u tell ppl u`re the one expecting TOO MUCH ?? . U wan me to change my life . Bec u come , i cannot watch tv . Cannot slp in the living room . CANNOT TALK OR PLAY wif Tinkle . Itz really a lil ridiculous on how much things u ask for . But i was nev the one gOing ard complaining . But u`re the one . And tat makes me the bad and CB one . There`s always reason behind a issue . I dunno wat else to say . Or wat else i can do . All i know is , u`re nev understanding . And u only think abt yrself . Seriously .......... Even when u`re not happy u ride like wat . U can don`t care abt me . But care abt ur life !! . U can don`t even care abt yrs . But wat abt other road users ?? . Okay . Let`s say i`m always the one at fault okay . I`m at fault tat i woke up when u threw yr tantrum . Tat i talk to u , u don`t wanna ans . Tat i ask u whether u wan me to go prepare for so long u don`t wanna ans me . SO I WATCH TV . And u blame me for watching tv . I`m all at fault . I`m at fault to be SOOO tired tat i fell asleep without knowing tat i`m asleep after u left . I`M ALL AT FAULT . And it makes me don`t understand why this relationship is like tat .. Bec u`re the one crying & complaining . Tat makes the whole world to put the fault on me . And always i`m the one keeping quiet .

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7:10 PM

Y Thursday, April 9, 2009

. Dear frenz & Readers . I`ve removed my tagboard . Thanks the all those craps all of u hav added in . I`ve created an email account juz for ppl to email me if they need any update on my blog . Like relinking or such . But , itz not my MSN account yea . So plz don`t add on yr msn okay ?? .

. Anyhoos , there`s reason why i`ve removed my tagboard . Bec of spammers . OR , shld i even say A SPAMMER . Well , itz really quite entertaining to see how A person uses different name and tag on a single tagboard ?? . Imagine wat kinda normal would sit person sitting infront of the screen & hiding behind so many names . Really , darling . I really wonder if u hav any life . Or frenz or family . I`m thinking , u tag . Yeaa . tat may a lil entertainment for u . And uses another name to reply yr OWN tag ?? . And uses another to AGREE yr OWN tag again . Seriously , when i went to check the I.P address . U really brought entertainment to my life instead of anger . Who in the right state of mind will sit in front of a computer and spams someone blog & tag again to reply yr own tag and laughing to yrself in the tag . Itz like talking to YRSELF ?? . And not to miss out the word laughing . I guess i shld hav pasted the spams u`ve made . It might help entertaining my readers too . But sorry to say . Darling u`re not worth my time :) Go find yr own frenz or family to entertain u alright ?? . U play yr own emotions . U direct & act on yr own . I seriously think u need a psychiatrist . If u really need one . Email me . And i`ll be glad to introduce one specialist to u . PROVIDED if u hav the money tOo u see ?? . Well darling . Thanks for the entertainment . But really , u`re not worth my time . Don`t u see ?? . U`ve been trying to tag so many times and i`ve nev replied . But still , itz VERY entertaining when i check yr IP address . Seeing u talking to yrself it makes me imagine wat kinda life u hav and wat a character u hav . I really do pity u . Thanks for the entertainment :) I think u`re such a small ant to me tat i don`t think tat i shld even spend another second typing this post to you .

. Well for people who might be curious who this person is . This is HER / his I.P address . HER/his I.P address nev changes like others would either . WONDER WHY ?? .
218.186.12.202

P.S : Thanks readers & passersby who hav contributed yr supports toO .

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5:01 PM

Y Wednesday, April 8, 2009

. Tinkle loves taking pictures tOo !! .

. Tinkle got stacked under the pillows . Muahahhaas .

. And she loves looking out the window to see cars moving & scenery . And she known as . Ms Kaypo .

. Resting on the pillow .

. Tinklebell signing off to the world wif a lil snack :) TATA !! .

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12:43 AM

Y Tuesday, April 7, 2009

. 3rd April , video of Tinklebell & baby playing .

. Alright was juz watching this video after i uploaded it on blogger while Tinklebell was sleeping in her cosy house . And it came the part when i took her toy out ?? . She thought i really took out in real life . And she slowly walk over to me & see watz gOing on . Paws up the table & look at the video . Walked away wif disappointment . Lied near th window . Again , she came forward happily when she heard i said MUM MUM in the video . Hahahars , okay . Then she start reading while i type my first sentence of the paragraph . AS THOUGH SHE UNDERSTAND !! . Alright , i think i talk too much . Gonna give Tinkle a snack now to decrease her disappointment for hearing those in the video . Hahahars . TATA !! .
-12.30pm

. 4th April . Estee Lauder`s private sale wif Kimmy .

. Thanks Pappy , Mummy & ppl from Estee for the tickets . The blue ticket is the ticket under pappy`s name . Itz a day before the private sale open to public ( the blue ticket is more like " V.I.P " ticket i guess ) . But mom gave me the ticket late . And Kim & i hav tO line up so long before we could get in the sales .

. And ... TA DAHHH . My long stretch of recipe . Lucky mom gave me money . Bec i`ve lost my whole make-up pouch during the FHM event at Zirca . So i hav to get everything new . BUT , nth can replace my limited edition PlayBoy lipstick by M.A.C .

. Kim`s SHOU RU for the day . Hahars .

. After tat , we headed to Bugis for some korean cruisne . Always feel like eating Korean dishes when i`m wif her . Dunno why . Muhahhaas , Mayb itz bec she like to step Korean .

. Her limited editions .

. My limited edition . Muhahahas . Well , there`s more to it .

. Then the both of us went to take NeoPrints again . Muahhas . Reminice the past .

. Lovely aren`t they ?? .

. In the night ,Tinkle was demanding for snacks as usual . But her snacks were out . So , i cut a piece of carrot for her . To my surprise . I saw the carrot left there like this . I dunno how she did it . But she`s one clever baby !! . Muahahahas . Tinkle always thought i`ll snatch her snack from her . See when i took this photo , she came to take the carrot back .

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. It seems like juz yesterday when i still hav u in my arms . If only i can be in control of time ...
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